Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Confessions of an Elephant owner

I am the author and owner of a dog blog, and yet out of everyone in my household, I am the least in love with our dog.  It's true. It's crazy, but it's true. I became a mom at the exact same time I became a dog owner and so my loyalty and frustration was not shared, but skewed and misplaced at times. The house breaking and crate training almost did me in on top of caring for a newborn.

When I am most humble, most grateful to my husband for all that he does, and most kind, I confess that I like her a lot. I wish I carried this attitude with me all of the time as I should, but alas I do not. I like having a clean house and true cream colored carpet. When you have a horse living in your house, the clean house prospect disappears. Thus you see my selfish frustration.

However, today I had a moment of enlightenment as we hurried out the door to run various errands as a family. I observed as Africa anxiously saw us all to the door, obviously concerned that we were leaving. She would inevitably go back to her bed and sleep while we were away, but as soon as she heard us return, she waited by the door as she always does excited for us to come back in.

We are EVERYTHING to her. Even me! She wants to be a part of our lives in every way. She is there to protect, to watch out, and to wait. When I put myself aside, I am pretty impressed with not just my dog, but all dogs in general. While I am pretty selfish, it is clear that they are the most unselfish creatures.  I don't deserve a dog like Africa. My husband surely does and thank goodness for him. Love is selfish, love is blind, but when it comes to dogs, they freely give it to whomever is willing to feel. I feel it today, and I am most grateful.

My name is Kasha. I own a dog blog that is all about our dog, Africa, and yet sometimes don't like her. I complain a lot about the business of owning an elephant for a dog, but today... I love her. The end.

10 comments:

  1. I remember you posted something like that before. But Africa is still with you and loved by you all.

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  2. Hello Kasha, we have just dropped over from the OP Pack's blog. Nice to meet you. Your dog Africa looks wonderful. We look forward to hearing more from you. No worries, and love, Carol (and Stella and Rory)

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  3. Hi Kasha, just wanted to say the three preschoolers I care for are not my own. I work from home and am a child care worker (Government regulated) and care for children while their parents work. My five children are all grown up. They range from 15 years to 26 years. Glad we met. I will pop in again. No worries, and love, Carol

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  4. Truth be told there are times when all of us don't love our dogs too much, but it is hard to resist the fierce loyalty they show to their human pack no matter what.

    Mango Momma

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  5. I'm constantly amazed by how much my dog loves me, No. Matter. What.

    "My goal in life is to be as good of a person my dog already thinks I am."

    Love,
    Heather (and Jack)

    http://readjacksblog.blogspot.com

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  6. Hi Kasha, your blog is nice.,also your dog looks good.

    Dog Fence

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  7. Thinking of you. Glad to see your still around and Africa is still a wonderful Boerboelo. I havent updated Dozer's site in over a year. He's an amazing Boerboelo Boy. Granted, the first couple of years were challenging.

    Congrats on the new addition!

    Take care,

    SplitRock Dozer's Mom and Dad

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  8. Aw, Kasha, you made my eyes water.. Such a lovely post, that indeed shows all your love for Africa. I so much know how you feel, I too would like a clean and tidy house all the time, but with a dog resident - especially huge ones like we have - it is nearly impossible.. My thoughts are with you! Take care !

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  9. So sweet! Give Africa a kiss for us. :) Happy Holidays to you & your family!

    Amber & Nala

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